I discovered that wordpress has an app and I decided to give it a try because since I challenged myself with being in a bilingual format I apparently lost a little bit my appetite to write in here…
So, what’s today’s topic? Honestly, currently I’m 100% natural in texting. This means, I don’t have anything in my mind…
Today I received a news that made me think about life and death issues again. I lost a relative… Automatically, this made me think about how much time passed since my father has gone and today how I feel about it.
Life and human mind is very complicated and worth to be investigated in my own opinion because when make a self assessment, I feel fine and better than my own expectations from myself, but feel guilty about it at the same time. There are so much things are going on in these days and in my mind, I often find myself as repeating “I wish my father was able to see that!” All of a sudden, with the impact of his loss, there are huge lessons learnt and novel actions, consequent changes may be with relative achievements. However, I feel guilty because I realized that I could do everything now I’m doing while he was with me but I acted like a spoiled kid of his… I don’t know, some of the close circle people argued that “ the essence of your father and daughter relationship was like that there is no one to blame.” But even though, the reality is like this, it is not so possible relieve with such arguments for me… All I can do is these days is to talk in my prays and wish for that at least he can see that I’m a better person since he’s not with me anymore…
For my part, all I can say is that don’t let your beloved ones undermine your potential even if their intentions are so good that you feel their love at the first sight. Apparently and without any intention, parents’ over love and care may damage your actual potential. Please take the whole responsibility of your own life with the good and bad outcomes. Please try not put burden on the shoulder of others while the whole decisions is only your own primary concern. Please never stop trying even if you are not 100% sure about yourself. Eventually, life will bring you a point where you need to be for your own sake.
I think I know much more better now why I am so angry and aggressive deep down… thank you for reading this and help me to be sure about it. The native version of this writing will not be the exact same one because I believe I need to direct my feelings and thoughts as they are as possible… If I can find time, I will put the Turkish version in here 🙂
Thank you so much for reading and inspiring!!!
Very Best Wishes,
I like twisting words. The headline looks like a direct translate Turkish joke even a bad one but believe me this joke is the better than my experience that I had today. 🙂 One of the web-based broadcasting channels that I signed up in Turkey, that’s where I’m from, was sending me an informatory advertisement about one of its stand-up programs for a long time. Today, the name of the program was sending me signals like “please watch me, please try me Yeliz” because it gives the impression of being about “single” people. So, at the end of the announcement of second season’s final, I decided to give it a try. I will not give the name of the channel or the program’s name in here because I don’t want to make any publicity at all.
The program is organized for forty-five minutes but I can barely watch it for twenty-two or three. It categorized as a stand-up comedy with a moderator comedian but I didn’t laugh. This can be a shocking news for those who know me well because I’ve generally well known by finding most of things easily funny. However, I didn’t even smile. As a very brief summary, this whole session was about the life three independent single women from the society and their dialogue with the “comedian” moderator. At the end of this approximately twenty-five minutes session of forcing myself to get into the topic; I decided my free time is so valuable for spreading over for such programs and closed it.
If we consider the program that I tried to watch, it is hard to say that it is a talk-show or stand-up in a classical manner we all know. If we label the stand-up comedies that I like and I know as the classics or the modern and these one as “post-moderns”, I have to say that adding “post-“ to a label should not have to make it specifically positive or good. My point is these types of “post-modern” stand-up comedies which frontier the public citizens and puts the comedians as the moderators seems the laziest way of earning money in terms of effort of the “comedian” moderator. You may argue that “Yeliz, they completely natural, their jokes and everything is %100 natural.” Even though this is true, what would I do with this naturality, if all I see is a public-show like a circus of freak show where people humiliate each other to look smart ass and force themselves to make everybody laugh at the end. It is a “post” because it is beyond the modern terms, however not in an intelligent manner. By the way, the given program example is not leading example of these kind of “post-modern” stand-up comedies; there are also other variations which I could only watch for five minutes in other paid web broadcasts as well.
I don’t know, I just can’t sit and laugh to the kind of things where people made fun of each other by downgrading or similar type of seemingly jokes. In my own personal opinion, there is no point to laugh these kinds of things because they look pathetic in a manner that they have no traces of thinking at all. We are looking, watching, listening, giving our precious time and dedication to supposedly experiences of the ordinary people. These conversations seemingly have a theme but actually not, they did not have conclusion or even an outcome. The only outcome I got from these kinds of programs is that I’m a more complex or older for this kind of programs.
I guess I have to admit that I’m getting older day by day even if I do not feel that way. The reason for having such a thought or having sense of feeling is that I cannot understand to which direction the world of broadcasting is going in a precise manner. Even though we have much more diversity in terms of option to watch, from my own personal perspective, I think we started to suffer from the quality of the contents in many terms. In my own opinion, for the sake of the technological facilitations, we gave up from the quality of the contents. Due to this obsession of quality of content of mine, I felt older than I actually am.
With am I going to laugh at the end if the paid web broadcast options are like this? Is the “post-modern” world means everything will go worse? Will we give up from the quality for the sake of other things? What will happen to the concepts, ethics and the products of the efforts? I believe this is no longer just a trade-off between quality and quantity but also there are other factors which can be discussed at other writings. What I believe is that in short, the importance of quality and effort lost its importance with this “post-modern” era. This is a very sad incident to see and we are surrounded by this degeneration. Yeah, I got older because I missed the good old days where there was a quality of the joke; where there was a quality of the laughter; where there was a quality of the effort in the joke and although it was more planned but it was so natural that you would see the excitement of the comedian in his/her eyes and body language at that moment. That was natural, not the public humiliation.
Bu blog köşesine ilk kez ulaşanlar için tüm bunların neyle ilgili olduğundan bahsetmeme izin verin. “Yeliz Anlatıyor” ama neyi anlatıyor? Duygularını mı? Düşüncelerini mi? Bu kısım kasıtlı olarak boş bırakılmıştır çünkü kendimi keşfetmek amacıyla burada amatör olarak yürüttüğüm yazma ve okuyucu ile buluşma maceram esnasında parmaklarımı ve zihnimi olabildiğince özgür bırakmak istedim. Umarım bu blog köşesini vakit geçirmeye değer bulursunuz.
Sizlerden tek beklentim, dünyada çeşit çeşit insan olduğunu ve bu yüzden de farklı farklı görüşlerin, perspektiflerin ve bunların yansımalarının olabileceğini unutmamanızdır. Bu nedenle yazılarımı okurken bu gerçeği aklınızda bulundurmanız ve kendinizi biraz benim penceremden bakmaya yönlendirmenizdir. Benim burada temel olarak yapmaya çalıştığım da aslında aynı şey; farklı konulara farklı açılardan yaklaşmaya ve hayatın özünü anlamaya çalışıyorum.
Sanırım 2016’dan beri blog köşemi takip ediyorsunuz veya yeni karşılaştınız. Bugüne kadar yalnızca Türkçe olarak yazdım ancak bundan sonrası için hem İngilizce hem de Türkçe olarak yazmaya devam etme kararı aldım. Yeni blog yazıları iki ayrı dil sekmesinde yayınlanacak şekilde organize edilecektir.
Umarım bu yeni maceramda benimle beraber keyifli vakit geçirirsiniz. Lütfen her blog yazısının sonunda yer alan yorum kısmından benimle iletişime geçmekten ve yorumlarınızı yapmaktan çekinmeyin. Biraz yapıcı katkı gerçekten hoşuma gider 🙂
For those who read this blog for the first time, let me introduce what all this is about… “Yeliz Anlatıyor” can simply translated as “Yeliz Expresses”. You may ask expresses what? Her feelings, her opinions? This part is left blank intentionally because I wanted to feel free and amateur as much as possible to discover myself during this writing and meeting with the audience adventure in here. I hope you find this blog corner worth to spend some time on it.
All I expect is that there are variety of people all around the world and consequently there are different frameworks of opinions, perspective and their reflections. For that reason, please try to keep this in mind and try to force yourself to think in my shoes. Because all I try to do is the same in here, try to approach to the different issues from different angles and get the essence of the life for myself.
So far since I guess 2016, the blog was in my native language, Turkish. However, as of today, I reconsidered my options and decided to write in a bilingual manner. Here is a new challenge for me and it sounds exciting. New blog posts will be posted in a bilingual manner.
I hope you will enjoy this novel adventure with me. Please feel free to contact me via commentaries at the end of each blog post. I really would like to have some feedback 🙂
**P.S. I’m not native so there can be some punctual or grammatical mistakes… Apologies beforehand 😀
With very best wishes,